burst and bloom

i gave you something that no one's gonna give you
my sleeping skin and my heart deep down in you
i'll never tell you, you're my little scar
goodbyes are hard and they're hard
yeah, they're hard
-"it's okay" land of talk

the fifth month doesn't drag along like the preceding winter months. may charges through time, bringing summer more quickly than i thought it would. with the spring semester over, i can't help but reflect (read: dwell) on the constant progression of my life. is progression even the right word?


am i moving forward? in many ways, i get the impression that my feet are just falling up and down very quickly in place, not really taking me anywhere. i still can't say that anybody is holding me back but myself, yet this daily routine without successful or meaningful variation makes life feel out of my own supervision.

nonetheless, i'm hoping to get little projects off the ground. i'm hoping the book club takes off successfully in june. if only we could choose a book. i'm awaiting the arrival of Philip K. Dick's "Valis". A dope addict on a quest for God........we'll see what kind of read it is. I'm already fascinated my the few pages I previewed on amazon.

[“What he did not know then is that it is sometimes an appropriate response to
reality is to go insane.”]


summer classes have started, and i'm already regretting my decision to try to sweep them out of the way with the 6-week, 6-hour, two days a week schedule. i'll be happy as an undisturbed, uneaten clam when july 2nd comes around. until then....


last bit of rabble rambling: i bought Cursive's "Mama, I'm Swollen..." album a few weeks ago. After listening to various youtube performances and reading through most of the lyrics that this one was less of an axe that Kasher could grind his anti-religion crux on. Maybe I'm more affected by Happy Hollow because the record isn't simply anti-religion; Kasher specifically puts Catholicism under his tempestuously critical lens, and I hate it. I'm not saying some of his complaints are without merit. It's true that there are dissenting actions occuring in the Catholic Church (there always have been), but I don't believe these actions represent the true spirit of the Church or the faith. I feel like these lyrics are imbuing the minds of all of the fans who aren't of the Catholic or Christian faith and causing a slightly ignorant and discriminatory view of what the Church is. (i.e. All priests molest innocent children and are power hungry con artists.)

My dilemma is that I still enjoy the music, and I'm not one to close my mind or ears to something just because I don't agree with the overall message. At the same time, I'm wondering if listening to albums like this doesn't contradict whatever faith values/beliefs I have.

With all that said, I think "I Couldn't Love You" is the best track on the album.
Listen and enjoy: